Illumination-(Day 175/365) “2014”
New Year Resolutions have always seemed like a good idea in hindsight, but seem to often be trivial. We all tend to set new goals for ourselves that are outrageous and unrealistic. So, this year instead of setting goals that I know I cannot promise to keep, I want to instead create a list of things I need to try and work on as a human, artist, sister, daughter, friend, classmate ,co-worker, etc. So, here we go…
1. Knock down my inner walls. There is a time and place to be guarded and to protect your heart from being taken advantage of or even destroyed. But, there’s also plenty of time to trust that despite how people may have let us down in the past, there are a multitude of people who will treasure what stands behind the surface. I need to allow myself to once again give my heart freely to others and have the courage to except and grow through whatever challenges it presents.
2.Be more Gracious. There are so many people out there who do things for us on a daily basis and we rarely take the time to show them how much we appreciate the efforts they put forth or the things/time they sacrifice for us.
3. More Discipline, Please. Okay, so I’m an artsy girl and that is essentially code for the fact that I enjoy going with the flow of whatever is inspiring me. However, I want this to be the year that I can have a confident grip on keeping organized and efficient. This would not only help myself, but it would help those around me,too. What is creativity without discipline?
4. Nurture my friendships. Whenever I have a lot on my mind, on my plate, or lots of laundry that needs to be done, I have a tendency to shut-down. Having your ducks in a row is something that feels really good, but I don’t want to sacrifice getting to know the friends and family members in my life simply because I was so busy with my own brain. I need to work on ”letting go” more this year.
5. Don’t be so hard on myself. Ever since I was a little girl I have always had this fiery will power that still works as my prime motivational source. This trait grants me plenty of vigor and passion, but when failure comes to the forefront, I begin to struggle with my identity. It’s funny, because I don’t consider myself an athletically competitive person at all, but I can empathize with athletes after a big loss because that’s how I feel when I haven’t overcome a personal challenge or have failed to reach a goal. This year I want to continue to work on forgiving myself, growing from my failures, learning, and forgetting. The show must go on!
6. Enjoy my freedom and be happy for people. I’m not really sure what to think about all of the blog posts that have been going viral recently addressing why or why not we should be married before we’re 22 (or something like that). But, what I do know is that everyone is different andmy life hasn’t seemed to bring me to a place where I feel personally content and fulfilled at age 21. I’m happy with that, because It’s part of the personal life journey meant for me. Everyone has a different story! There is so much I still want to learn, people I hope to meet , and places I want to explore. I don’t think I could see myself sharing life with somebody who doesn’t have that same outlook. So, I want this to be the year I stop sneering at Facebook advertised engagements/romances, be happy for those with different journeys then my own, and start looking forward to the crazy adventures I’ll have one day with somebody who isn’t done learning about the world yet either. In the mean time, I’ll be creating cool stuff and loving every minute of it.
7. Don’t Doubt My Art. Putting your hard work out in the open can be nerve wrecking. You cant help but sometimes be sensitive and wonder if the things you make are going to be a flop or perhaps others won’t understand what you create. But, wise people and professionals have always expressed that we must believe in our art in order to do big things with it. This year I want to think of my endeavors as an expression of love to the world, be confident in that, and forget the rest.
Let’s do this, 2014.